I think about how it will most likely never happen to me. I can’t imagine someone loving me for the rest of their life. Wanting to be with me and only touch me forever. I can’t imagine ever being that special. Forever is a long time.
I used to find it enjoyable. Then the last guy I was with kind of ruined it for me. I just don’t really have any positive feelings associated with it anymore.
I’d want to have sex, after a couple of minutes and say “Sorry, I just want head” and then stop. This happened a lot times. And for the dozens of times I did it to him. He returned the favor ONCE. I’m not the type of person that keeps score but I mean, come on, it’s nice to get something back once in a while :/ Or even just sex….
He even said once “Umm so can’t you like, put it in deeper?”
Fuck you I don’t feel like choking on your cock.
Of course I didn’t say anything. Because you put up with anything and do everything for someone you really like.
Never again. I’m not doing anything I don’t like or aren’t comfortable doing ever again just because I like them.
I might change my mind later on and I probably will whenever the time comes that I find someone who’s a more compassionate lover.